They say as you get older you evolve and mature, grow more sensible and do the right things mostly.
Well! I am not so sure, recently I suffered a heart break.
No, I did not fall out of love or any such romantic relationship, me and my partner still going strong.
I fell out with my best friend, the friend that I had since my high school days, we went through college, university, jobs , marriage and having kids. It was a long haul. We always dreamt of living in the same city and meet often to discuss our woes, shop or crib!
After our respective marriages, we were torn apart, living in different cities, sometimes different countries. It was not easy to meet at all, let alone planning it. New age technology kept us connected, through Whatsapp, Facebook etc.
However, technology cannot replace human interaction, it shielded the fact that we both were evolving and changing. Sometimes this change can only be taken in stride when there is a physical interaction. So, there we were quietly evolving without the other person not being aware. After all, we cannot mentally be in high school forever, life has a way to force upon certain changes.
By quirk of fate I landed in the same city as my friend, I was quite excited that finally we would be able to meet, have that ubiquitous coffee and share our woes! The move was extremely taxing on me , as now I had a family and their requirements also needed to be fulfilled. I texted ahead to let her know my arrival and in fact had a lengthy conversation before I made the move. She knew I was in the city and had my number. Days flew by as I tried to settle in and create a home for my family, it is a tough job in a new place where you hardly know a soul.
Everyday I expected a call to come through empathising with me, it never came, she never bothered. Well, I could have called up too, yes! But by the time i was ready to make that call, with my kids settled and their needs taken care of, it was already four months. Not once did she call and by then I was severely hurt, too much, to realise she did not want any contact from me. That friend whom I had loved with all my heart just did not want me in her life.
It’s been a further 4 more months since then, my heart still pains and I do not enjoy living in this city. Too hurt to make new friends, too hurt to even try!
Maybe there was something, maybe I should have called up, there are too many of those. What however, I learnt from this episode is that, all relationships come with an expiry date, the sooner we realize that the better our today will become. Today let us meet that one friendly face with a smile, who knows tomorrow she might not smile back.
All this when one is supposed to be matured and sensible. Adulthood!!! What is it after all?